I’m a two-face, so-to-speak. But not in the way that you’re thinking, I hope. We all know what the term means. Acting differently depending on who is around you.

I’m the kind of two face that sees something good in a person’s life and is truly happy for that person but at the same time is dejected and discouraged in my own life. Case in point. Today I saw a post on LinkedIn about a fellow boot camp classmate who has been given a job offer. I am super happy for him and the accomplishment he has achieved and I want him to excel. At the same time, I am grieved about my current situation and how I have failed thus far in my job search. The doubts and negativity engulf my mind. Why can’t I get a job as a UX designer? What is wrong with me? Am I not good enough? We have the same experience as UX designers, what makes him stand out over me? As these thoughts are bombarding my mind at the same time the two-faced coins flip in the air… and my thoughts for him are excitement and joy and the thoughts about myself are, well, not.

This dichotomy is painful. It’s causing turmoil and confusion. Can anyone relate?

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